May the Fourth Be With You!

It's been a bit longer than usual since I last checked in, and I decided that today being Star Wars day made a perfect occasion. I am a Star Wars fanatic in the worst possible way, so despite so much crazy crap going on here at work, I'm a happy little worker bee, day dreaming as I have millions of times about being a Jedi, dueling with my lightsaber and being one with the Force. I'll be watching "A New Hope" when I get home today, because it is my favorite film because I am a Star Wars purist/elitist/snob. I'm also currently reading the second book in the Legacy of the Force Saga entitled Omen, which is the first real novel that deals with the up and coming Sith Empire that is going to be emerging in the EU updated timeline. None of these books are exceptionally long, but man... I love them. I could read Star Wars books all day every day.

I've been reading a lot lately, mostly because I've been having trouble writing. I've written and deleted and written and deleted the same 5 pages of story like 4 times over the past week and a half, and I just got to the point where I had to step back and take a few days off from it. I'm probably the worst sort of person to set out on a book writing endeavor because I'm constantly hounded by doubt in everything I do, but it becomes exceptionally hard to handle when writing a book. But alas, I digress. I know I'll get through this, it's just going to take some time. Unfortunately, the person who I talked to and ultimately brainstormed and tossed my ideas at, I've clipped out of my life for unrelated reasons, and I've found it quite difficult to move forward in a story like this without someone to bounce ideas off of. Just the act of talking about the book alone gets me motivated to write, and lately I have pretty much no one to do this with.

In the past, though, I always found that reading other stuff helped me to write, and so I've got 2 books I'm bouncing back and forth between. I'm also going to see Thor this Saturday, which will be really good for me. I need to be able to watch something fantastical that I've never seen before, and attack my brain with new and exciting ideas and images. I've been paying a lot of attention to the NBA Finals and the Los Angeles Lakers, and that kind of stuff doesn't spark anything. It is relaxing, though, and after a crappy day at work (which they all seem to be, lately) it's good to relax the brain. Speaking of work, they hired a new graveyard guy, so I'm looking at 3 weeks at the latest before I'm moved into my new shift. I'm really, really excited. Finally, I'll get to catch up on the 3 years of sleep I've been missing out on. I'll be able to wake up and feed all of my energy into my writing and into going out and being active and I'm just ready for it. It's a big reason my job has felt so BLAH lately. I've been dying for this change, and the longer I wait, the worse my current shift feels.

I know, you totally empathize. Anyway, what else is new? Osama is dead. That was a big one. Lots of Drama there. I also found out that my old Hometown of Jacksonville has been flooded with overpasses. Weird news which most of you won't understand, but it totally throws me off. I'm thinking I'll be trying to make a trek back there sometime in 2012 before the world ends.

So expect my little word tracker to start moving again here soon. Send your positive energy in my direction so that I can get these wrackspurts out of my head. Until next time...


Dream Big,
Ian