Wednesday, May 4, 2011

May the Fourth Be With You!

It's been a bit longer than usual since I last checked in, and I decided that today being Star Wars day made a perfect occasion. I am a Star Wars fanatic in the worst possible way, so despite so much crazy crap going on here at work, I'm a happy little worker bee, day dreaming as I have millions of times about being a Jedi, dueling with my lightsaber and being one with the Force. I'll be watching "A New Hope" when I get home today, because it is my favorite film because I am a Star Wars purist/elitist/snob. I'm also currently reading the second book in the Legacy of the Force Saga entitled Omen, which is the first real novel that deals with the up and coming Sith Empire that is going to be emerging in the EU updated timeline. None of these books are exceptionally long, but man... I love them. I could read Star Wars books all day every day.

I've been reading a lot lately, mostly because I've been having trouble writing. I've written and deleted and written and deleted the same 5 pages of story like 4 times over the past week and a half, and I just got to the point where I had to step back and take a few days off from it. I'm probably the worst sort of person to set out on a book writing endeavor because I'm constantly hounded by doubt in everything I do, but it becomes exceptionally hard to handle when writing a book. But alas, I digress. I know I'll get through this, it's just going to take some time. Unfortunately, the person who I talked to and ultimately brainstormed and tossed my ideas at, I've clipped out of my life for unrelated reasons, and I've found it quite difficult to move forward in a story like this without someone to bounce ideas off of. Just the act of talking about the book alone gets me motivated to write, and lately I have pretty much no one to do this with.

In the past, though, I always found that reading other stuff helped me to write, and so I've got 2 books I'm bouncing back and forth between. I'm also going to see Thor this Saturday, which will be really good for me. I need to be able to watch something fantastical that I've never seen before, and attack my brain with new and exciting ideas and images. I've been paying a lot of attention to the NBA Finals and the Los Angeles Lakers, and that kind of stuff doesn't spark anything. It is relaxing, though, and after a crappy day at work (which they all seem to be, lately) it's good to relax the brain. Speaking of work, they hired a new graveyard guy, so I'm looking at 3 weeks at the latest before I'm moved into my new shift. I'm really, really excited. Finally, I'll get to catch up on the 3 years of sleep I've been missing out on. I'll be able to wake up and feed all of my energy into my writing and into going out and being active and I'm just ready for it. It's a big reason my job has felt so BLAH lately. I've been dying for this change, and the longer I wait, the worse my current shift feels.

I know, you totally empathize. Anyway, what else is new? Osama is dead. That was a big one. Lots of Drama there. I also found out that my old Hometown of Jacksonville has been flooded with overpasses. Weird news which most of you won't understand, but it totally throws me off. I'm thinking I'll be trying to make a trek back there sometime in 2012 before the world ends.

So expect my little word tracker to start moving again here soon. Send your positive energy in my direction so that I can get these wrackspurts out of my head. Until next time...

Dream Big,


  1. *Pew Pew Pew* That was my positive energy being thrown at you. Who did you have to cut out?? Anywho, like I said yesterday, I'm sure there will be plenty more time where you just need to take a break and step back, but you know we support you! I look forward to your shift change as well, hopefully we can see more of each other finally! I feel like I moved to another state!

    Look forward to reading more chapters!

  2. Soooo... Thor... what'd ya think? We went yesterday too. I'm totally unfamiliar with the character so it was kind of fun in that regard. I honestly had only two big complaints... the music sucked balls and Kat Dennings's character was about as pointless as characters can get. Otherwise I was actually pretty impressed with all of it. Chris Hemsworth was seriously jacked... steroids much? :P lol

    Have you thought about starting a completely seperate and purely for fun writing project you could play around with on those "OMG I cannot write this novel" days? Then you'd still be writing every day you'd just be letting yourself write in a non-pressure project when you're struggling with the real one.

    You're always welcome to call me up or email if you need a pal to throw ideas around with. If I'm not free to talk I'll just say so. ;) Granted no 4am calls... but I'm home more often than not so that is an advantage.

    And on a random note... how is your furbag? I came home from Thor and took the little one's Nerf hammer and beat up Loki with it. nehneh! That'll teach him for scratching my mattress. And on that note I have a child that needs a beating so I better get off here and deliver. Call me soon!

  3. Hi, I came across your blog in a facebook group. Good luck with it. I heard about Star Wars day on Twitter. No idea why they made it May 4th.

  4. @Rhianna - I'll call you soon, this week has been crazy. You know I appreciate and feel lucky to have a friend like you, girly. When I call, we'll talk about all that other stuff.

    @Cinders - Hi! Thanks for stumbling across me. I hope my experiences in writing this book either help or entertain you, or both. :)